Watched Piranha at cousin's house yesterday. Blood here and there... regreted for watching Piranha :|

Life

I dreamed a dream that is playing with my feelings. Time passes very fast. My mind is full with confusions. I don't know what exacly i want. I hope everything changes and goes well. Or even better.

Up, down, left, right. I'm facing a problem in my life now: I don't know what I want. Gosh.

Just like my friends, skipping school after PMR. And once one person come, the whole gang together come school. Can't believe that even i stay at home also can gain weight. Went to training 2 days ago and now my legs pain like hell. Besides, don't why i so long didn't go training the instructor can know my name!
Stay at home also can sick. So suey... Now i got new number d! So happy...
And, mom had changed her mind so we going to Korea soon! Haha...

Feeling less motivated and regreted with the silly mistakes that I have done last time.

Freedom

Yay PMR finish d so let's celebrate!!! Finally!
My dad keep asking how many As i can get for pmr and it is really annoying...! The more he ask the more i worry and frustrated. =(
So... now i have plenty of stuff to do like read manga, watch anime...drawing...get Bleach openings and ending and many more! Gotta go now so chao!

Blood

This morning my friend sneeze and then her nose started bleeding. When I looked at the blood, it happens again. My heart started to beat very fast, I started to feel uneasy and breathe heavily, my hands started to shiver and feeling cold, my legs became weak and I can't pay attention to my surroundings. Well, this is just a minor symptom. There are some other serious cases that happened to me before that make me feel even worse. I will feel very hard to breathe and feel like my trachea has frozen, my vision start to become blur and dark, body feel like very hard to move and feel like gonna faint(or collapse).
My mom just don't understand what is happening to me and what i am going through. Sigh. I feel terrible when i see blood. I have hemophobia.

18 September 2010

From today onwards i'm offically 15... Yep my mom changed her mind and celebrated my birthday at Kepong. And the cake Chocolate Nocciola from Fruity is really nice :) Something came up and it leaves a very bitter memory in my life. Don't ask me what is it -I feel very bad about it. More than 20 people wish me 'Happy Birthday' on my facebook wall unexpectedly on I decided to reply them by saying 'Thanks'. Then, I gave up. Too many people for me to reply. Haha.

I love my granny's vegetarian Bak Kut Teh :D Taste so nice~! And also healthy :) My family went to my granny's house and ate her Bak Kut Teh for lunch yesterday XD So... next time if i got take the picture of this Bak Kut Teh then i'll post here ok? >.<~

Finally, i have lost interest in online and offline games. I'm so happy...! But i still like to watch people play games. Example: Watching my bro play dOtA.

Recently this week i keep on have dreams every night when i sleep. All weird dreams like: my tuition have become a school, two friends grabbing me to go JJ, etc etc. Weird.

Kristen's 2008 movie

Hey all guess what i watched a 2008 movie by Kristen Stewart :D At first i saw her in the movie and i can't believe it that it was really her! She act a bit bossy in the movie (sorry no offence here ok...just saying my point of view.) It's a story about she and her guyfriend help a stranger to find back his wife. Okay i won't say so much here so i'll talk to you guys when school reopens okay? See ya!

Worst year

My mom decided to cancel my birthday party plan this year...actually i planned to celebrate my birthday with my relatives in Kepong at 18 September which falls on Saturday. Well PMR is around the corner(next month) so she wants me to study even more harder. So, i have to celebrate with my family at home. There might be no birthday cake since there are only four people at home(dad, mom, bro and me)cause we don't like to buy small-sized cake. Honestly, i'm upset. I thought this year gonna be a nice year but a lot of horrible things happened this year.


Besides, my mom has canceled our holiday trip to Korea. Actually we plan to go together with our relatives but then my first cousin bro changed his mind so we cancel our plan. It's a good news anyway cause i hate traveling overseas. (need to get scolded by mom if cannot wake up etc etc) So... benita no need to nervous break down already~ :D

Between me and him

I don't understand my bro. What actually is he thinking?? He is 3 years older than me. Both of us might look very close outside but we always quarrel at home.
What my bro wants is like how all brothers and sisters do: share the same food and drinks etc etc. But i don't like it. For me it is so eeeww. Besides he always likes to share food and drinks with me ==. Well i know that sharing is caring but somehow, sometimes i have to say 'no' if i don't feel like wanna share them with him. And everytime when i refuse to share my food and drinks with him, he starts to sulk(sorry if there is grammar error). As though because we are siblings so i MUST share everything to him if he wants them. Sometimes, even worse. He will complain it to my parents. My dad will fight for my rights and for my mom, sigh! She will surely takes my bro's side. I mean, she will help my bro. No matter what. Because she always supports my bro. You know, all 'old-fashioned' women usually treat boys better than girls because they thinks that boys are more capable in doing things. And she puts more hope on my bro because he is smarter than me. Well, i'm my daddy's girl and my bro is my mama's boy.
Besides, the way he treats me just makes me thinks that i'm his girlfriend! (he is single)That's so odd! This really makes me mad. He really makes me start to have a bit androphobia(now i'm okay with it). And i only wanna share my food and drinks with my dad and my friends(if i want la)because i trust my dad. This is my decision. And i only want the food sharing thingy and the hold hands thingy between me and my boyfriend(i'm single). Why can't he respect my decision?
As a brother, he should educate and teach me those homeworks that i don't know, advise me and protect me if got naughty boys disturb me(>:D) That is what all i want. He just don't want to think about it. Gaargh why he is so difficult?

Scanlations matter

The removal of manga scans in OneManga last month really makes me mad. Or upset? Alright, very, very upset. That time when i browsed to the website to read manga, they announced that they will remove their manga scans. I was shocked. And feeling heartache. It was like losing something very valuable in my life. (well i can say that i'm a otaku but it's not like i can't live without manga.)And now today's newspaper at otakuZone they are talking about it. Somehow, i think that the manga publisher company should not ask the website to stop scanning their comics as they afraid they will lose their business. Well you see, without the website readers would not know about other new manga. I don't why but because of this issue i am willing to fight for manga websites' rights. Debate or what, i don't care. No matter what i'll fight for the right.(except involving life and money. Hehe)
By the way, you know why i support manga websites? Because shops do not sell the comics that all readers want! All shops only sell popular comics. So, how do te publishers expect people to buy the comics? So, instead of finding which shop that sells the comic that they want all around the world, people prefer to read comics online. To tell the truth, certain readers who like the manga that they read online, they will be looking forward to buy the manga as their collection. Besides, do they know that after manga websites stop scanning manga, it will bring a lot of changes towards the society and future generation? People will get fed up and lose interest with this 'manga-reading-hobby' as they are dissapointed when manga websites stop scanning manga and they will end up find something else to enjoy thenselves which mostly can be harmful such as gambling, smoking and drinking. Some who are not wealthy even resort to stealing money to buy comics. This is the fact.

So, use common sense lah. Think twice.

Everytime when school finishes, i always hoped that i could reach home as soon as possible. It's so hot here! I just hope that now is 28 degree celcius.

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Recently hui woon called me her twin because we look almost alike?? Few months ago my senior said we look alike although we are not twins :]

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I start to hate Cabal because they like to make unnecessary changes. At first everything is still ok but then the more they change the system, more things are getting worse. Haizz.

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Yesterday i watched the movie V For Vendetta. So nice!

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Recently people keep making me upset only. Haiz so hard to show my temper:( Everytime when want angry suddenly can laugh =.=

-Endie- (Feeling gloomy now. Everything is so tasteless.)

Ulquiorra's cute moment

Woar this is one of the best part in Bleach XD The video that i've posted here is Arrancar Encyclopedia. Everytime when any Bleach episode finishes they will show this encyclopedia, telling us a lot of stuff about the Arrancars. And in this episode 270's encyclopedia is about Ulquiorra~ the 4th Espada.

Ulquiorra is an emo, moody person and someone has no expression. But, don't know why he looks so cute~!(for me la.) And he so cool~ And this time he shows his cute part~! OMG i wanna pinch him! >.< ahh... *dies from cute*

But... although Ulquiorra is very pro Espada but at last he lose to Ichigo and he died!(T.T) OMG Noooo....!!! At first Ichigo died because he was killed by Ulquiorra but then he revives as a Hollow in his second form and kill Ulquiorra. Haizz what to say Ichigo surely win want la cause he's the main character of this anime. But nevermind because the hottie Grimmjaw still alive (6th Espada) so i don't mind as soon as either Ulquirra or Grimmjaw is alive ^.^. But, as i think all over again, it will be better if both of them are alive. I don't wanna lose anyone of them(so precious)!

13 August 2010

Hi all i'm back and today is 20 August 2010. Ah~ it has been a week i didn't online. I actually ban myself from internet because of my PMR trial. So, today trial finish already so i'm back.

13 August was my dad's birthday. At night me and my family go eat at Windmill in Aeon Jusco. Wahh the food in there so ho-liao! I can eat until i burst! Then after that we get a free chocolate ice-cream >.< ! Nice! After eat finish we all go Millwheel and eat ice-cream(again).

Spec spec

It's raining now, finally after so long. This morning is really hot. This morning on the way to school i realised that something's missing- My glasses. I was like: OMG! Cannot tell dad. Cause if i tell he wouldn't turn back home and get me my glasses. So, i suffer in school lah. I feel so...weird without wearing glasses for almost 5 hours. And today all form 3 got ceramah about motivation and science for PMR. As for the science, is the worst. Because me and my friends are sitting behind so i have to ask for their help when the lecturer wrote important notes on the board T.T. Gosh! So suey!

And yesterday we have ceramah for maths. This lecturer tought and introduced us a technique called speed maths, which you can solve a question in 5 seconds instead of 1 minute! He wrote some questions on the board he showed us how he solve the questions using the technique. We were like: Woa! Siao! And he tought us to memorise formula using song. One of them is the formula of Chapter8: Trigonometry. Thanks to him. Now i can memorise that formula better. SOH CAH TOA~~~! Hahahahahaha...!!!

Hi-yark!

Last saturday when training my instructor ask everyone to gather and around my school's badminton court and sparring. Wahh so nice! Everyone have chance(s) to fight except me cause i was feeling giddy @_@ This was the 3rd time i see my club members sparring. The last 3 matches are my instructor vs my seniors. Damn nice....!!!! He so fast and his combo really nice ~.~ So, i plan to go tournament training next year. heheheheh...

And speaking of taekwondo, I like martial arts and i don't know why. Maybe they look so cool or 'yeng' (for me la) So, my plan is: after finish my taekwondo, i'll learn Muay Thai, then Wing Chun and Karate. Cool right...? Haha i know it is imposible for people like me :(

Okay okay... jump back to last saturday. I had a weird dream. In my dream, i was in my tuition class. That time the class was so crowded. I saw my maths tuition teacher on the stage(for teaching) The class was very noisy because a lot of naughty boys were talking. So, she cannot tolerate with them anymore so she took out a pistol(a black colour beretta. hehe don't ask me why i know about guns)and aim at them. The whole class went silent within a second. Then, the teacher pulled the trigger. Poww! it's empty. Then the boys laughed. Then she pulled the trigger again. A boy got shoot. But it's a round plastic bullet. What a prank. -After that, i woke up. It's almost dinner time.-

Music Baby Lose Control~!

Emm this post's title is a song's title =.= haha. Oh ya talking about music, i love music a lot. If i'm given a chance, i wanna learn guitar, electric guitar, violin, cello, piano, drum and.... aiya everything! I want to learn everything! But it is imposible right? Does this count as greedy? I'm always fascinated by those people who play these kind of music instruments.

One thing, if i knows how to play guitar, i wish that i can play the song Hey Soul Sister and etc. I knows how to play electric guitar, I wish that i can play like Orianthi (bwahahahaha!! >:D) If i know how to play violin, i wish that i can play the music canon and etc etc. If i knows how to play piano, i wish that i can play like Jay Chou and Beethoven(hui woon don't worry i'm not talking about you.) I'm ambitous :D

Does God exist?

Does God exist? I've been wondering this question all this while. Maybe it is true? Or maybe it is just a myth? If God does not exist, then why until now everyone is still praying? I'm so confused...

Alright, let's go to the next step. If i am the professor, i'll say this:
Does cold exist? -Yes. Because when there's no more hot, something have to replace the hot which is cold. This is why cold exist. Then God made human to realise that cold appear when there's absence of hot. Everything happens for a reason.
Does darkness exist? -Yes. Same thing. When light is gone, God use darkness to replace light. Everything happens for a reason.
Does evil exist? -Yes. Why? Because, when there's good, there's a bad. Everything has it's opposide. If there's God, then there is also devil. God tried to make humans do good deeds while devil is the opposide. They make human to do evil for some reasons (i'm not a christian, so i don't know much about all these stuff. But i know some of these things because some of my friends and relatives are christian.)So that they could rule the world? I think so.Well, for what you can see nowdays devil is ruling the world. Take a good look around you. And once again, things happen for a reason.

*I get this video from my friend who shared it in Facebook.

Phew!

Yay monthly test over already. Good! No more pressure :) Haihh now i got panda eyes because i stayed up late at night to do last minute study. Yay~ can play cabal, watch anime and read manga~ Ahahahahahaha~!!! Now i can sleep nicely >.<

Sometimes i thinks that studying in school is just like playing game. We study and learn new things- just like killing monsters and gain experiences. Our teacher is our guide- just like the guide in game. Exams- we have to kill bosses to pass the next stage. Haha don't you think so? mmm something like that right?

Weak and sick

After recovering from cough i got sneeze(emm...is that thr right word? or is it 'cold'?) I'm sick! Seriously sick! and i hate sickness! I get sneeze right after recovering my cough without any reason. No one is sick around me. The sensory cell in my nose get swell an irritate and then i sneeze- haaaciuu!!!

Arghh i hate sickness! Cause i cannot sleep in air-cond room =(

Grounded

Haihh... PMR is around the corner. And i'm grounded. I can't go anywhere. All my other friends go Aeon Jusco and watch Eclipse, The Last Airbender, Inception etc etc and i don't have a chance to watch all these movies (T.T) Now i have to study hard...

I started to realise, getting good results is really important for my future. And no more enjoying for this time. I have to be serious. Next year need to study extra subjects. I have to put more effort on my studies now cause i'm a last minute study person. Looks like i could not enjoy my time nicely for this year and next year. Well, maybe i can enjoy nicely after i get a high pay job :D No matter what, must gambatte...!!!

Few days ago (wednesday) was the final of 8tv Live Showdown 2010. The winner is Wakaka Crew, 1st runner up is Giller Batlle Crew and the 2nd runner up is Floor Fever. Congratz to the crews. You know... Joe from Wakaka Crew is so cute!!! XD The Wakaka Crew won RM50,000. Wow, that was quite a big amount of money o.O I am same with the judge Maple Loo. Both of us are not surprise that Wakaka Crew won because a lot of people support and vote for them since from the earlier competition. This live show is really nice and good quality, as good as Malaysian Idol. I start to support local live show after watching Showdown 2010. =) -Are You Game?-


Songs updated:
Jay Chow: Cai Hong
Jay Chow: Dao Xiang

Some songs are removed. I like Jay Chow's songs. They're nice =)

Back to back~!

Kyaa~!!! It's back! (huh?) yea~ it's back!!! You know what's that? -My 'draw mood'~!!! For so long, after 7 months i finally have the mood to draw liao~ (i'm weird right? draw thing also need 'drawing mood') Last night i draw my 'beloved' Kazune-san wearing school uniform and a thick scarf around his neck covering his mouth in a winter place and i pula in hot hot Malaysia =.=

This morning was the third time i see the cute kitten again. Meoww~! It's was during perhimpunan and this cat sit under teacher's car. Sadly this time he don't want layan already (T.T) i 'meoww' so many time but he still don't want come. Keep on sit there like statue and stare at me.

Cough! Cough! I'm sick once again. Since last Thursday. That day me, benita and other friends talking about body resistance and i was thinking: my body is quite strong right? so long i didn't sick liao. And when i go home i terus got cough. i not gonna take any cough medicine cause it will affect my body resistance. so i eat sweet lorr. Cough!

Harr...?

'It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way.' ....huh..? I don't understand the meaning, i don't understand what actually the author is talking about and i don't understand what he wanna say. This passage is from the book 'The Tales of Two Cities'. From my school's library. I don't understand this idiom stuff. What did he meant?
This is the second time i met this cute kitten in my school today =) The first time was when i was walking from the science lab back to my class few days ago. Then the second time is today, when i'm waiting for my bus. This kitten is sooooooo cute >.< This kitten responded to me when i called him(or her. I not sure with the gender yet.) Then this cat will just sit there and let me touch him XD Cats and kittens are so cute! Now i realised that i'm a cat lover. More than dog. ;P Meoww~!

Oops, i did it again. Last night I almost picked a fight with my English tuition teacher =P Blame my mouth. I'm just telling the truth. Haih we all have to stay up late next week as punishment =( Well, since this teacher is older than me so i 'give face' so that she wouldn't feel embarased. Never mind let her win lah. If i quarrel somemore with her she'll surely phone my parents etc etc blah blah blah~ So i better keep my mouth shut =X

Songs updated:

Cabal: Maptheme Green Despair
Jay Chow: Ju Hua Tai
*this updated Jay Chow song is kind old...but it still is one of my fav chinese songs =D

Marshmallow

My was talking to my dad about the marshmallow with chocolate coating sold by my school's consumer's club(Kelab Pengguna in bm.) while we were having our dinner. Then, suprisingly he ask:'Marshmallow is a fruit right?' I was like: O.O ... Then i told him that marshmallow is like cookie, a process food. Then he disagreed, and said:'no lah... marshmallow is fruit lah...come from tree want...' Then we fight fight fight... just for truth of "Where does marshmallow come from".

Because of You...

I was a quiet, a bit 'closed-minded' and shy person when i was in primary school. Then after i finished UPSR i have to 'level up' and go to the next stage which is Form 1. Emm...you know lah...most people in chinese primary school are quite closed-minded so i think i was one of them. At the first day of school in SMK Star(form1 that time) i was thinking:'Haizz... need to make new friends again...' And thing goes like: ok ok lah. I was glad to see some of my primary school friends in this school (but all of them are in different class)so i think:'yay got old friends here... no need to be so lonely liao...'. But i'm still lonely lah (i'm not good at making friengs)and things change when my class teacher changes our seats and so i met a nice person. i 'kagum' her lah. That time we don't have any close buddies in class so that's why we quite close lah. Months later, my life changed. I started to be open-minded, not that 'shy-shy' anymore, hooked on manga and become a bit 'crazy'. hahahahaa... Even my friend since primary said i've changed a lot and more 'naughty' and not as quiet as i was during primary XD
Years later, she changed. And we are not in the same class anymore. But we still okay. By the way, thank you for changing my life!

Star Close 2010

Yesterday was Star Close. Organized by my ping pong club (for ping pong club members only.) and my club president say it is compulsory for all members to join but still need 1 ringgit as entry fee (apalah...my money...). My ping pong meeting and other stuff is every wednesday so this week's Star Close is for Form3+Form4 category. And next week is Form5+Form6 category. I was very nervous cause i'm not ready yet! I don't even know how to serve the ball ==" Even worse, my president chose me as the first person to compete in this competition. My heart was like: 'Degup degup degup!' This is because i'm still a newbie in this club. Luckily i won in the first match...and lost in the second match. Although i've lost, but i learned how to play this game properly and know about the game rules. I enjoyed the game.
Then, bored...and i accidentally did something that makes hui woon pissed off =P so i have to run to save my life and glad that i manage to escape from her. hahahahahaa...

I did something really, really terrible in school yesterday. I don't know what should i do now... I'm stuck, worried and lost. Really suck. It may get me into a big trouble. I feel like 'wanna die...!!!' Gosh, things gonna be very nasty. It's horrible!
I will not tell what's going on here cause if any of my school teacher come across this blog i gonna be in big trouble. Mmm... i think it's nothing to do with breaking the rules. So don't worry =="

*geram...geram...geram...* Feel kinda regret for what's i've done =O=

Problematic

Last night after finishing a cleaning process on my both ears, some really really terrible happen. My both ears are okay and my ear left ear is normal(can hear things properly. I mean 'ok ok la') but my right ear can hear 10 times better than my left ear! What i mean is my right ear is really sharp! So, my right ear can hear things really clearly and when i walk my right ear can even hear my footsteps! I can even the sound of the fan in my bro's room @_@ My right ear which can hear better and clearer than my left ear makes me feel as though my left ear is blocked(feeling like my left ear is deaf) Then, soon things started to make me pissed off. I feel imbalance, left ear feel wierd, the imbalance makes me don't know whether the sound of the tv or radio is too loud or just nice... and i can't hear songs properly. Especially when someone talk to me. I don't know where the voice come from. I'm quite sensetive to sharp voices now. Now i'm really stress out, confused and really worried with my ears. Hope they'll get used to the surroundings and recover.

Say bye-bye to holiday

School will reopen tomorrow which is Monday. Aiyaya now i miss holiday. Somehow i feel like 2 weeks of holiday is too short!!! LoL i haven't touch my holiday work yet =P How i spend my 2 weeks holiday? -Eat, play Cabal, nap, go tuition, watch tv till midnight and sleep. I've repeated this schedule for these 2 weeks XD So, school will reopen tomorrow and i won't be that active in Cabal, facebook, blog etc etc... then i have to face tons of homeworks and exams... and also scolding from teachers @.@ Then, i have finish my PMR and then holidsy again~ I miss you holiday!

What The Heck

I read Star newspaper this morning right after having my breakfast. Surprised to see new movie The Legend Is Born: Ip Man is coming out but not by Donnie Yen =( Ip Man 1 and 2 is a very nice movie and i liked Donnie as Ip Man. His moves really rocks! But this new show is about Ip Man at young age so they have to choose someone who is younger and looks like Donnie Yen to act in this new movie. I missed Donnie Yen.
Then i watched Miley's "Can't Be Tamed" in Britian's Got Talent on youtube and shock to see the ways she dress @.@ And do the 'wat the heck' stuff with the female dancer O.O This time Miley look kinda older. (My bro said she looked older than Kelly Carkson- no offense okay.) On the video she kinda wild... a bit older... and whatever lah. I'm just @#$%&* when i saw this video @_@ To: Miley's fans... don't get angry okay...? Really sorry sorry sorry~ if i've hurt your feelings...

New Playlist

Yay just uploaded a playlist. Well, all songs in there are Cabal. Looks like i've become a Cabal fan =O= Maybe some you will dislike the songs in my playlist :( So, if i find any 'suitable' songs then i'll upload them k. Thanks to Seow Kheng for info and other people for reference =)

Songs updated:
Cabal: Ship Lobby(Tierra Del Bruto)- Theme music in Lv52~60 and Lv61~94 Nation War lobby.
Cabal: Tierra Gloriosa- Theme music in Lv95 above Nation War lobby.
Cabal: Honor of Victory- This music will be played in the nation's war lobby if the nation won the war.
Cabal: Port Lux- A map theme in a place called Port Lux. There drop a lot of sloted items. Haha =3

My favourite- Ship Lobby! The music is nice =]

22 Suggestions For Success by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Few days ago my family and I went for shopping in Aeon Jusco Bukit Tinggi. Then, we had our dinner at Black Canyon. After ordering, while waiting for our dinner i saw this on the wall:-

22 Suggestions For Success by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.:

1. Marry the right person. This one decision will determine 90% of your happiness or misery.
2. Work at something you enjoy and that's worthy of your time and talent.
3. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
4. Become the most positive and enthusiatic person you know.
5. Be generous.
7. Have a gratefull heart.
8. Persistence, persistence, persistence.
9. Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary.
10. Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.
11. Commit yourself to constant improment.
12. Commit yourself to quality.
13. Understand that happiness is not based on posesion, power or prestige but on relationship with people you love and respect.
14. Be loyal.
15. Be honest.
16. Self-starter.
17. Be decisive even if it mean you'll sometimes be wrong.
18. Stop blaming others. Think responsibility for every area of your life.
19. Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll be regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.
20. Take good care of those you love.
21. Don's do anything that wouldn't make your Mom proud.
22. Drink Black Canyon Coffee not Starbucks.(Haha)

Recently all of us really busy. Especially 'ME'! First, i need to finish my Geo and Sejarah folio...need to hand in by 31 May. Second, after folio, i(or we) need to finish our documentasi before our KH teacher go berserk == Third,i need to study for mid-year exam. After exam so fast the next one come already D= need to stuff everything into my mind again and score good result if not my mom will kill me +_+ Besides, i also still need to go nation war(not necessary) Then i also need to update my equipment(not necessary). LoL... so that's it. I also need to visit my relatif(aka Dai-Yi) in KL during Wesak Day this Friday.
After knowing that i have exam from this Thursday to next Friday, my mom -ban- me from going training this Saturday. Really sucks. Her purpose is to ask me study. But, you see, every Saturday i wake up at 11am and (if i go training),i'll come back at 10.30am. So, what's the difference??? Next month want grading already leh still don't let me go training. Muu!!!

Finally i've fully recovered from flu and sore throat without pills in 4 days... yay.

希望の空。

私は私が人間として生まれるなぜか…疑問に思うか。 私はなぜ…か疑問に思い続ける 私また、神は存在している疑問に思うか。 神は人間として住むために私を選ぶか。 私の生命はである疑門符と完全… 一日一日と、私は耐えられるべきどんな人間のためにか人間をであるこの悪い行為をすることをますます見るか。 私はずっとこの世界の15年間私明日するべきであるものが、知らない住んでいる。 私は私が空を調べるので私が私の答えを、希望の空見つけることを望む。

*sigh*... i don't know what i'm thinking... making things so complicated. Making that kind of imagination really makes me feel weird...confuse.

Let's skip that topic.
Alright here. All of us have 1 chance to survive in this world as a human, but why some people couldn't value it? ...No lah... just wanna say that hope everyone enjoys every moment in your life. This is your life, don't let anyone choose which journey you are going next. Don't get moody for the whole day just because of -(your boyfriend or your friends ditch you? Your friend cursed you? Your best friend betrayed you? etc etc...) Just let it be- You still have journey to go on and time is running fast (that's what i'm thinking). Do what you wanna do (that you think is right)- coz you only has 1 chance to do these things while you're still breathing in this world. No need to feel regret or dissapointed for what you have done(that you think is right). Examples: If you like a guy or a girl, then just confess to them(if only they don't have a lover)before someone(your rival...?) confess to them. The worst thing is, if your admireer agrees to accept he or she to be their lover, then you'll feel 100x dissapointed for not telling them earlier(for some people)(Gah i talk too much. Feeling retard now). Well, *ehem* this happens to me before...and i feel total regret/dissapointed.(Arghh!!!! feeling so 'disaster' and 'explode')

Then, now i'm in despair and prefer to spend my life on games- and talking to game buddies who are strangers online, watching animes and reading manga.(and being single foreva?-no way!)(really...? Maybe not.) And then, here comes the next disaster to me- My future job. Everytime when teacher asked "what's your ambition?"- i went blurr. I realised that i don't have a dream job. That means i don't have a ambition to determine where i'm heading, what i gonna study and what i gonna do next time. But usually i'll answer: accountant. Why? -Because of: all my relatives are accountant. Accountant will get a high pay. I only can survive with that high pay and i don't know what job suits me. Haizz... At 1st i get inspired by a manga Orange Kiss(the 1st manga that i read)drawn by Usami Maki so i decided to become a mangaka(a cartoonist) but things really gone wrong because: My drawing is not that good and my dad said "tak boleh cari makan...!!!" *sighhhhhhhh...!!!!!!!* Arhh just let things be. And i don't know what should i do. As for now, i shall continue my journey(or life) according to everything that happens around me as time passing by.

Cabal

Well, for me this is a nice online game. I started playing since 2007- until now. I can see Cabal made a lot of changes since 2007- a lot. The graphic improves... new title... new dungeons...ahh everything! My friends asked me: "what's so nice about Cabal?" Well, i don't know -I just like it =) Oh yea few minutes ago i went to youtube and discovered a video called 'Cabal vs Runes of Magic'. I was like: o.O ... From viewers' comments, most of them support Runes of Magic. Is it because of you could select your character's height and body size...? Haizz but no matter what, now millions of people are playing Cabal (bwahahahaaha~!!!)

http://cabal.playpark.net/index.aspx

Here i wanna share a video with you guys- sorry it's Cabal(Phillipine)but i like their video=) (We are Cabal Singapore and Malaysia) - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXwa_rHB4Y&feature=related

Farewell, KhOyA.

At year 2008, i started playing my 1st character in Cabal. That time my level was quite low. Then one day, when i was leveling then a high level character called HailAmarath came and invited me to a guild called 'KhOyA'. At the time i felt very glad and Hail was the guild master. People in this guild said that KhOyA means lazy (and that really suits me!). And then almost a year past, Hail left this guild and join his friend's guild. that was really bad. He is a nice GM(Guild Master). Then time past- Now BigBurn is my GM. Soon things went really bad. Day by day my guild members became inactive. Then now is year 2010- this guild become a '98% Dead Guild'. All the members now offline for more than 5 months+. I can say that i'm the only member 'alive' in this guild. Few days ago, my friend invited me to her guild called 'NevarethAcademy'. So i decided to leave this old guild and accept her invitation. Now i'm in a new guild and i wanna say sorry to BigBurn GM for not giving you a notice that i'm leaving KhOyA guild(cause that time you offline). I start liking this guild cause the members in this guild are friendly and really helpful. So... NevarethAcademy please keep moving forward and don't ever become a dead guild!

<--Alrite this my main character in nation war lobby when he was still in KhOyA. Dun ask why i train male character coz i'm sharing the character with my bro.