Blood

This morning my friend sneeze and then her nose started bleeding. When I looked at the blood, it happens again. My heart started to beat very fast, I started to feel uneasy and breathe heavily, my hands started to shiver and feeling cold, my legs became weak and I can't pay attention to my surroundings. Well, this is just a minor symptom. There are some other serious cases that happened to me before that make me feel even worse. I will feel very hard to breathe and feel like my trachea has frozen, my vision start to become blur and dark, body feel like very hard to move and feel like gonna faint(or collapse).
My mom just don't understand what is happening to me and what i am going through. Sigh. I feel terrible when i see blood. I have hemophobia.

18 September 2010

From today onwards i'm offically 15... Yep my mom changed her mind and celebrated my birthday at Kepong. And the cake Chocolate Nocciola from Fruity is really nice :) Something came up and it leaves a very bitter memory in my life. Don't ask me what is it -I feel very bad about it. More than 20 people wish me 'Happy Birthday' on my facebook wall unexpectedly on I decided to reply them by saying 'Thanks'. Then, I gave up. Too many people for me to reply. Haha.

I love my granny's vegetarian Bak Kut Teh :D Taste so nice~! And also healthy :) My family went to my granny's house and ate her Bak Kut Teh for lunch yesterday XD So... next time if i got take the picture of this Bak Kut Teh then i'll post here ok? >.<~

Finally, i have lost interest in online and offline games. I'm so happy...! But i still like to watch people play games. Example: Watching my bro play dOtA.

Recently this week i keep on have dreams every night when i sleep. All weird dreams like: my tuition have become a school, two friends grabbing me to go JJ, etc etc. Weird.

Kristen's 2008 movie

Hey all guess what i watched a 2008 movie by Kristen Stewart :D At first i saw her in the movie and i can't believe it that it was really her! She act a bit bossy in the movie (sorry no offence here ok...just saying my point of view.) It's a story about she and her guyfriend help a stranger to find back his wife. Okay i won't say so much here so i'll talk to you guys when school reopens okay? See ya!

Worst year

My mom decided to cancel my birthday party plan this year...actually i planned to celebrate my birthday with my relatives in Kepong at 18 September which falls on Saturday. Well PMR is around the corner(next month) so she wants me to study even more harder. So, i have to celebrate with my family at home. There might be no birthday cake since there are only four people at home(dad, mom, bro and me)cause we don't like to buy small-sized cake. Honestly, i'm upset. I thought this year gonna be a nice year but a lot of horrible things happened this year.


Besides, my mom has canceled our holiday trip to Korea. Actually we plan to go together with our relatives but then my first cousin bro changed his mind so we cancel our plan. It's a good news anyway cause i hate traveling overseas. (need to get scolded by mom if cannot wake up etc etc) So... benita no need to nervous break down already~ :D

Between me and him

I don't understand my bro. What actually is he thinking?? He is 3 years older than me. Both of us might look very close outside but we always quarrel at home.
What my bro wants is like how all brothers and sisters do: share the same food and drinks etc etc. But i don't like it. For me it is so eeeww. Besides he always likes to share food and drinks with me ==. Well i know that sharing is caring but somehow, sometimes i have to say 'no' if i don't feel like wanna share them with him. And everytime when i refuse to share my food and drinks with him, he starts to sulk(sorry if there is grammar error). As though because we are siblings so i MUST share everything to him if he wants them. Sometimes, even worse. He will complain it to my parents. My dad will fight for my rights and for my mom, sigh! She will surely takes my bro's side. I mean, she will help my bro. No matter what. Because she always supports my bro. You know, all 'old-fashioned' women usually treat boys better than girls because they thinks that boys are more capable in doing things. And she puts more hope on my bro because he is smarter than me. Well, i'm my daddy's girl and my bro is my mama's boy.
Besides, the way he treats me just makes me thinks that i'm his girlfriend! (he is single)That's so odd! This really makes me mad. He really makes me start to have a bit androphobia(now i'm okay with it). And i only wanna share my food and drinks with my dad and my friends(if i want la)because i trust my dad. This is my decision. And i only want the food sharing thingy and the hold hands thingy between me and my boyfriend(i'm single). Why can't he respect my decision?
As a brother, he should educate and teach me those homeworks that i don't know, advise me and protect me if got naughty boys disturb me(>:D) That is what all i want. He just don't want to think about it. Gaargh why he is so difficult?

Scanlations matter

The removal of manga scans in OneManga last month really makes me mad. Or upset? Alright, very, very upset. That time when i browsed to the website to read manga, they announced that they will remove their manga scans. I was shocked. And feeling heartache. It was like losing something very valuable in my life. (well i can say that i'm a otaku but it's not like i can't live without manga.)And now today's newspaper at otakuZone they are talking about it. Somehow, i think that the manga publisher company should not ask the website to stop scanning their comics as they afraid they will lose their business. Well you see, without the website readers would not know about other new manga. I don't why but because of this issue i am willing to fight for manga websites' rights. Debate or what, i don't care. No matter what i'll fight for the right.(except involving life and money. Hehe)
By the way, you know why i support manga websites? Because shops do not sell the comics that all readers want! All shops only sell popular comics. So, how do te publishers expect people to buy the comics? So, instead of finding which shop that sells the comic that they want all around the world, people prefer to read comics online. To tell the truth, certain readers who like the manga that they read online, they will be looking forward to buy the manga as their collection. Besides, do they know that after manga websites stop scanning manga, it will bring a lot of changes towards the society and future generation? People will get fed up and lose interest with this 'manga-reading-hobby' as they are dissapointed when manga websites stop scanning manga and they will end up find something else to enjoy thenselves which mostly can be harmful such as gambling, smoking and drinking. Some who are not wealthy even resort to stealing money to buy comics. This is the fact.

So, use common sense lah. Think twice.